It’s December 16, 2022. We should have a 3-year-old, or almost 3-year-old right now. And, to be quite honest, I’m having a lot of complicated feelings about that this year. Many people, while in the thick of trying to grow our family, told us that when we had our baby in our arms & livesContinue reading “Believe in Belief”
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“I hope that my daughter…”
“Here’s to strong women,” indeed. May know them. May we be them May we raise them. <— this part When we found out we were miraculously (scientifically) pregnant, I was ecstatic. Terrified, but totally elated. Dec. 9th, when we heard that heartbeat, we rushed home, heads spinning, hearts soaring. We celebrated. We breathed. The nextContinue reading ““I hope that my daughter…””
All day, all shit
Thanks to everyone who has reached out. I don’t really have much of a capacity to talk & frankly I don’t want to. We’re incredibly disappointed – understatement of the century – & feel let down by the universe & whatever else is up or out there. I believe in the Sun, moon, & starsContinue reading “All day, all shit”
This Could Be the End of Everything
Tuesday, September 7th. This could be the end of everything. Everything as we know it, that is. 38 months, collectively, of trying (& failing) to conceive. THIRTY. EIGHT. MONTHS. We tried for 9 months before finally getting pregnant. That miracle ended in miscarriage by our first appointment. When we were supposed to hear the heartbeat.Continue reading “This Could Be the End of Everything”
What if I fall? What if I don’t?
July 1st. I haven’t sat down to write since April 28th. We have had many big, life-changing decisions in the Glossner household since then. The last critical morphology we had in February (??? who knows anymore? what is time?) wasn’t…stellar. To say that we were defeated & disappointed would be the biggest understatement of theContinue reading “What if I fall? What if I don’t?”
Father’s Day
Father’s Day is a complicated day for me. It used to be a day where my family would be together and my dad would pick what he wanted for dinner; we would sit around and talk and laugh. It was a simple holiday, one that probably doesn’t get the same attention as Thanksgiving or Christmas;Continue reading “Father’s Day”
Dreaming with a Broken Heart
Oof, I know it’s been awhile, y’all. I’m sorry for that, but also not that sorry? I know that (to the right people) I never have to apologize. (Sidenote: if you are finding yourself in the constant need to apologize or explain yourself to “your“people, thems NOT your people, friendo. Cut ’em loose, & watchContinue reading “Dreaming with a Broken Heart”
Going our own way.
Just don’t forget about the rest of us, okay? The infertiles, the childless, the sad, the alone, the despaired, the…barely-able-to-keep-goings. Think about & include us every once in awhile. Even when it’s not “convenient.”
Lifting myself up off the floor.
“I’ve always been someone who shied away from something that I thought I would fail at because I didn’t want the humiliation of failing at something I tried at so I think that’s what this is and omg I’m just now realizing that.” The above comes from a text conversation that I had with oneContinue reading “Lifting myself up off the floor.”
“…no. not like that.”
Hi, all. I know that it’s been awhile, but I made a promise to myself that I wasn’t going to write/update on a personal level during the TWW (two week wait). And then, to be quite honest, I just really haven’t felt like writing. Over the last few weeks (nay: months/years) people have, in theirContinue reading ““…no. not like that.””
Soulstice: Return of the Light 