Believe in Belief

It’s December 16, 2022. We should have a 3-year-old, or almost 3-year-old right now.

And, to be quite honest, I’m having a lot of complicated feelings about that this year.

Many people, while in the thick of trying to grow our family, told us that when we had our baby in our arms & lives that it would all make sense. Because it was always supposed to be them.

It was hard to believe that & have hope. I’ll go ahead & speak for Stephen & say we would’ve gladly foregone all the pain, heartbreak, struggle, & loss but…man. It WAS always supposed to be our girl. I didn’t always keep the faith internally, but I guess I did externally with my actions. We never gave up & trusted our doctors, the science, & the process & — as a result — I’m currently rocking our life’s biggest blessing, greatest joy, & most cherished gift to sleep for her late morning nap.

Blessed beyond words.
Grateful beyond measure.
Blissful beyond belief.

~ As always, thanks so much for reading. Much love, & hope for a return of the light.

“So I’ve been hearing this phrase y’all got over here that I ain’t too crazy about. ‘It’s the hope that kills you.’ Y’all know that? I disagree, you know? I think it’s the lack of hope that comes & gets you. See, I believe in hope. I believe in belief.”

“The Hope That Kills You.” Ted Lasso, created by Bill Lawrence, season 1, episode 10. Apple TV+, 2020.